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Thursday, October 17, 2013

our big news…it’s official.

 

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What happens when you have something big to share?

Are you someone who immediately shares it?

Or do you prefer to act more slowly, dripping your information out carefully until you can put your arms around the whole idea?  Maybe your answer depends on whether it’s considered good news or bad news or whether it affects those closest to you.

Well today I’m finally writing this post after starting and stopping more than a few times. The truth is, I’m the kind of person who has to ‘feel’ my way through things, even when I’m fine with my decision, I still like to quietly sift through my thoughts and let my feelings do what they may.

At my age I’ve learned that when it comes to our emotional lives, we’re all like those bobbing icebergs in the ocean; at first glance it’s easy to assume we’re seeing it all… when in reality ninety percent of our substance lies beneath the surface. I like this analogy, it helps me stay honest with myself.

The other reason I’ve been slow to write this post is because I’ve had my parents to think about; I wanted to make sure they had time to get comfortable before I ran around spreading the news. And now that they’re in a good place I feel utterly relieved.

So here it is, our big news:

We’re moving.

Yep. After twenty one years living in Sacramento, California and raising our boys in the same home we’re moving 420 miles away to Huntington Beach, California.

They say timing is everything and in our case it’s so true.

When we moved Michael to college in August we talked and joked about what our new life would be like. I think the empty nest experience is like that, it’s a chance to step back and take a deep breath as a couple. To check in with each other and ask important questions. To shine the light back on your little twosome again and revisit some old dreams.

I even made a list of new experiences we would do. Dance lessons, photography class, writing projects, travel spots…

I think we both felt it; after Michael had been gone for a while there was this exhilarating energy that began to poke its head out, a sense of openness about our future that made me glance at a magazine headline that read, “The art of starting over,” and think, ‘yeah, I like that idea.

But never, ever did we plan on relocating.

Not once.

And then a simple conversation changed everything. An offer was made to Mr. Moss, a job transfer to Southern California that presented him with some wonderful possibilities in a place where we once lived before our children were born, a place where we both have warm, gushing memories of our beginning.

This offer led us on a week-long visit to So Cal where we explored neighborhoods and toyed with the huge possibility of leaving our family home for real. Moving away from my family and especially my parents. Leaving my dearest friends whom we’ve raised our kids with, forged bonds with and a community that holds our most precious memories.

Starting all over in a totally new city was no small decision. But in the end, it was all about our future and it was about making life easier for Mr. Moss and for these reasons the decision feels absolutely right.

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Frankly, it’s bit surreal; even though I was once a girl who threw caution to the wind and took off to another city in pursuit of love, I feel light years away from that girl. Time molds us in the shape of our priorities and my priorities were simple, my family. I found happiness in creating a warm, secure life for our boys, however raising kids with a sense of stability means a whole lot of sameness. And over the years I’ve become quite the contented homebody.

I’m not exaggerating.

I’m a terrible traveler. After a few days of vacation, I actually crave my own bed. My dream trip to Europe would be perfect if I after all that gorgeous sightseeing, I could make it home to sleep at night.

See what I mean? This move is going to be interesting.

Although I will admit that I can sense something that hasn’t been part of my life in awhile, and it’s the feeling of risk-taking.

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It’s me and Mr. Moss again.

And the big unknown is suddenly in front of us much like it was twenty five years ago when we were newlyweds.

Life has suddenly become one big question mark. Our house is being readied for sale. Our next home and neighborhood is clouded in uncertainty. I’m looking at the prospect of a new city with strange street names and no possibility of running into a single, familiar face.

And the strangest thing is, I’m doing fine with it all.. I’m hunkered down in the traveler’s seat next to a man who just might be the kindest, funniest, and most comforting person to go through life with, and it’s ok. I feel blessed for this guy. And for my boys who are so positive.

And even though I know this decision will include its ups and downs and a range of excitement and sadness, at least at this moment everything is good.

 

At this moment …I choose gratitude.

 

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I would  love to hear your thoughts….

xo

Leslie

 

 

 

 

32 comments:

White Weathered Hutch, said...

Oh Leslie I'm so excited for you. We moved many years ago when our children had grown and moved out.
We stayed in the same provence and moved only an hour away, but that gave us country and that is what we wanted. Away from the hustle and the bustle. A place where we could call home. Wide open spaces. Since then our children have all moved within an half hour distance. Life sure has it's curves. All the best Leslie.

simone antoniazzi said...

Wow!!!!

I think it sounds incredibly exciting and I am actually full of awe that you have taken this step - I am sure that many wouldn't have done. And many of those wouldn't have done would deep down in their hearts have wished they had.

You sound excited & positive....and you always seem such a wise person that I have no doubt that you have weighed up absolutely all the pros & cons and come to the right decision.

I absolutely LOVE the way you describe your "empty nest" & the process of getting back to the couple you were once, or at least the couple with the freedom to take risks...in the way you sometimes only can pre-children.

What is it they say....you only regret the things you didn't do?

When I read your post, I felt certain you are making the right decision.

Well done to you & I love thinking of you & Mr Moss on this exciting new road together :)

Can't wait to follow your journey!! X

Cathi said...

Wow, congratulations, Leslie....So exciting! I have up and moved several times in my life, so I can do change really well. You will love it. Looking forward to hearing all about it! You won't be far from me so maybe we can meet up for coffee one day when you get settled! xxoo

Gypsy Heart said...

I think it's exciting and wonderful! I know that your life has changed since the boys went off to school ~ we all seem to wonder, "What's next?" when that happens. You sound very positive and IMHO, it will be an absolutely wonderful experience! Love that quote by Mary Oliver ~

xo
Pat

Susan said...

No one can make this decision but the two of you. It sounds like you are on your way to a wonderful life adventure. As the saying goes," Home is where your heart is."

Kim Gibson said...

"I choose gratitude". Those are words to live by. I'm excited for you! This is a great new adventure! I do hope you will share it with us. We still have one at home as you know, but we are already planning. Wait til my husband hears about dance lessons! That's on my list too! =) Good luck!

Art and Sand said...

I am so excited that you have made the announcement. Now you will be posting possible cities, houses, decorating ideas.

I hope everything goes quickly on the sale of your house.

And, I am selfishly awaiting the day when we can meet in Venice or Santa Monica or even Laguna Beach for lunch.

Can't wait to hear where you choose to live.

Heather - New House New Home said...

We moved 2 years ago from a big city to a small town about 2 1/2 hours away from our closest child (who is an adult). It's been a huge transition, one we're all still getting used to. But it's been amazing. I would never go back to big city living. The small town feeling, meeting friends at the store, a hand held out in times of need. Never had that in a big town. I do miss my kids and my grandsons who are now 3 1/2 hours away. But when we are together, it's more concentrated, more intense, less rushed as they know they are stayign the weekend, not just for dinner.
My one bit of advice - get involved in something you love so that you can meet like-minded people. I joined the curling league (a very Canadian thing to do) and have many wonderful women in my new "hometown".
Enjoy, enjoy. Life is truly an adventure and if you let it go by without jumping on that train, it will pass you by.

Linda @ Itsy Bits And Pieces said...

What an exciting new chapter in your life...an adventure! I don't know why, but I thought you lived in Southern California. We lived in Sacramento, Elk Grove, and Lodi for 11 years...and picked up and moved to Minnesota back in the 80's. My parents, brothers and sister all still live there...so I'm back there pretty often!
I hope your plans all come together smoothly...and I'm looking forward to hearing all about the move!

Pam Kessler said...

It all sounds so exciting! I too remember that feeling that everything was in front of you. Didn't know what life had in store, but you were in for the ride. I am so happy for you. Just make sure you take your bed with you!

AntiqueChase said...

I think it sounds really really exciting and the OC will be FUN! Of course I think you should look at Thousand Oaks instead :)

michele said...

how exciting! i'm so happy for you to begin this new chapter. and i know very well what you are feeling because i feel it too. an anticipation about what's next and embracing this time of life where we have more choices now that the kids are in school.

keep choosing gratitude and aiming high!

michele

Blondie's Journal said...

Leslie, like the other gals, I'm terribly excited for you. Mostly because I can see that your heart is in it. And you are in awe of that, which is a big step toward filling in the blanks about the rest of your life with your sweet hubby. And I guess that's what it's all about. Once the kids fly the coop, you are back full circle. I know I'm going to be going through that soon and I've made a lot of changes just concerning myself but soon, The Husband and I will be heading down the path together.

Now, will you be further from where your kids go to school (as far as visits?). You know I'm wishing you well, I think we are quite alike. I moved here when we got married and we've been in the same house for 28 years! I could move anywhere in a heartbeat if I could take the kids and future grandkids with!! :)

XO,
Jane

Dayle Allen Shockley @ A Collection of Days said...

Dear Leslie,

How exciting! On some level, I envy you. The Man and I were talking just today about how we had always planned to move after he retired, move somewhere with spectacular vistas with a small-town feeling. We didn't, because of leaving family. Thankfully, we have the privilege of traveling and seeing those places, but there are still times when I wish we would up and move.

How wonderful to take a risk and know that you have each other.

Can't wait to follow along on your new journey.

gerri said...

Hi ,
I wish you all the very best as I too am preparing for a long move from the U.K to N.Carolina.
Family and friends will be missed dreadfully,but we will visit each other.and just think of all those new,amazing experiences to be had,and wonderful new friends to be made.
we are both so lucky to have another chance at new possibilities,
Take care ,good luck and God bless.
Gerri

Castles Crowns and Cottages said...

Dearest Leslie! It's been a while since we've shared words, and this IS BIG NEWS! I've made two major moves in my 31 years of marriage; first from L.A. to Boston, then here to Minneapolis. HUNTINGTON BEACH? Oh dear, those shores were my sandy stomping grounds as a teen in the 70s! Make every mile count. Anita

Heather Lindstrom said...

Leslie dear-this post gives me chills-in a good way. I am thrilled for you and Mr. Moss. Nothing like an adventure ahead to get the energy flowing. My husband and I had a similar conversation just a couple of weekends ago. I've lived in Chico for 13 since we married but I am really looking forward to getting back to the Wine Country in Napa/Sonoma where I lived before I moved here. The idea of starting fresh-with your favorite guy-is so exciting. Add the beach to boot? This is beyond! Can't wait to watch you launch my friend.
xx, Heather

Vickie @ Ranger 911 said...

Now's the perfect time to start a new chapter in your lives! The first few years after your children leave home are the hardest. Your move will give you something to look forward to and give you back the adventure you're looking for!

Lori said...

Oh my goodness ~ first Simone ~ now you!! What an exciting yet scary time. I know that the range of emotions will be both happy and sad as you ready the house for sale. My Mom sold the house I grew up in back in 2006. We had moved in the winter of 72 when I was in grade 2 ~ so I basically grew up there. It also held so many memories of Dad. The day of the move I held it together but the day after I went out for some odds and ends we had left behind and went into the ugly cry ~ it was horrible ~ one of those gasping for breath ~ snotty nose and everything! I love that you are sort of starting over ~ becoming 2 again after all these years. Enjoy every moment as you start this new chapter Leslie. xo

Calypso In The Country said...

How incredibly exciting! We are no where near that point in our lives with our kids 7 and 9. I like to think that someday I will be ready to move somewhere else, to start a new adventure...but for now I will just have to live vicariously though you! Keep us all posted where you choose to live! Cheers to you! - Shelley

Sarah said...

Leslie, that is exciting news! I admire you as a couple for taking this risk. It will likely open up all kinds of exciting opportunities. Yes, exciting, indeed!

Down to Earth Style said...

I am excited for you. Must be fun to get have a little freedom to follow where you WANT to go and not HAVE to go. Lucky girl. :) Good luck with the move!

Kendra Pahukoa said...

oh wow and oh yay!
southern cal is ready for ya leslie. huntington beach is so beautiful and i cannot wait to see the home you put together. what a new exciting chapter.
i love this post and love that you will be even closer to my digs. it's nice to picture you here. :)

Jeanette@Creating A Life said...

Leslie, this is huge! What a blessing to be able to choose such an adventure at this stage of life. I'm looking forward to following along on your exciting journey!

anangloinquebec said...

I thought I had commented on this post...hmmm. aging?
Well, good for you Leslie. These times when our children leave the nest and we attempt to rediscover who we were before and who we have now become are so interesting. I am at a similar crossroads. At first I thought it was a tad scarey but I am now feeling a bit of excitement around these ideas.
I am so happy to hear in your "voice" a sense of exhilaration with this new adventure in place. I completely understand that need to mull it over in your head, look at it from different angles while you consider all of its pros and cons. Once that is done...well, time to put it in action.
Exciting.

Castles Crowns and Cottages said...

Oh Leslie, thank you so much for coming by today! I just got home from work and I am enjoying one of my simple pleasures: connecting with people who have the passion for writing about their experiences.

It is quite amazing when you think of the amount of time you've spent together, what you've done as a couple (raising children for you, going to school for us) and you wonder, "HOW DID WE DO IT ALL?" Then we hope journey more and maybe another 30 years from now say, "I remember all those dear bloggers I once knew." I love Mary Oliver's quote about what are we going to do with this one, precious life....each one of us is the only person that can decide that for ourselves. ENJOY YOUR NEW ADVENTURE IN THE SUN! Anita

chillcat said...

Leslie, what a brave and beautiful post. An adventure. With a man you love. The sea, the sea. I am so excited for you. This is truly a wild and wonderful thing and you will do it splendidly.

As for me I've done it all backward. Many wild and wonderful things have been done, over and over. I'm just happy to write now, oversee the garden, wait for the right love again, keep peddling my kids, play the piano. The world of writing and the energy I am giving it is the wild thang right now.
hugs xxcat

Sharon @ Elizabeth & Co. said...

Wow, that is a big life change Leslie! How wonderful and exciting to be looking forward to the future and all the possibilities ahead! And you know, I'm actually not the least bit surprised! Can't wait to follow your new adventure!

Sherry @ No Minimalist Here said...

Leslie, Congrats to both of you and I wish you much happiness in your new location.
Hugs,
Sherry

Something Nice and Pretty said...

I'm so happy for you Leslie, you sound so positive about your move, it has to be the right thing for both of you!
Thanks for stopping by, Barbara Walters is a little frail, they held on to her whenever she would step up on stage or when she got down, someone was always with her.

Happy Turtle said...

Such great news!I wholeheartedly wish you both to enjoy life. Do keep us posted;-)

Monica said...

"warm, gushing memories of our beginning" - I absolutely love that and am so happy that you give so many of us the pleasure of seeing glimpses of your new adventure. xx

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